im experiencing a strain from my toes, across my calf, shin, thighs, hemstring, buttocks, waist, spine, tummy, rib, shoulders, neck, right up to my head.
went jogging on friday.
the last jog i had was monday.
the muscle aches took 3 days to recover.
friday night i receive alien's call to replace her players in a 3 on 3 tournament on sat n sun.
again; i played the martyr.
sigh.

its 11.52am on sunday morning.
i slept 4 hrs or so on fri night.
tats all.
am supposed to be tired.
usual me gets so lethargic that i neglect the world and head str8 to bed ignoring whether i had dried my hair.

today felt different.
didnt wanna rest knowing i should.
leaving for KL tmr morn at 6.15am.
was looking forward to take this breather apart from all the workload.
but this very instance, i felt kinda held back.

my lip piercing was off for a day.
for some reasons, i thought about not replacing it.
then, i scaled my lips right at the spot where my piercing's supposed to be.
when's im restless n high i do stupid things like placing my mouth under a hot tea dispenser.
jia ling and i both thought it might be fruit punch. -.-"
smart.

jiayi was a nuisance ytd.
i couldnt even take good care of myself.
how she expect me to care abt her?
i've ignore 2 consecutive days of calls.
she wants to slash.
she wants to cry.
she wants attention.
she wants explanation.
she wants consolation.
she was in desolation, confusion, disorientation!
ya-da-ya-da-ya-da...
i've always been telling her wat to do coz she seek for me for advices.
end of the day she'd still go ahead with her silly doings and regret only when things gets screwed up.
She defeats the purpose of me talking to her.
She wasting my time.
and i dont have much of that to spare.
texted her only ytd " jiayi, sorry i cant help u."
if she's dead by now.
i'd pray for her.

oh the carnival.
we got runner-up. :(
i want the cash.
did pretty well ytd.
this mornin i went on court half tipsy, totally enervated and emo.
not in condition to play at all.
its over n done with.
runner up was pretty good, initially i went without even the thought of winning anything.
organised by Home Utd; thought i might see couple of em.
nah. none. onli Jason as cameraman.
Aft prize presentation, he gave me 13 booklets of coupons for the carnival that'd worth $130.
alien got 4 from candy. that makes $170.
they feast.
had no appetite; ate stupid imitated shark's fin.
remains of the coupons, i was having thoughts of getting carton of coke.
Ya i know; i said i quit coke, but just now i wasnt thinking sanely, just wanted it.
they bought 2 cartons of 100+ for e camp. i split the coke with jialing.

ahhhhhh emo.
f la.
so long since i felt this way.
i'm human man.
this is amazing.

urgh.
i think this is karma.

f**k! don't wanna blog no more!
@$%^@&$^

Oei
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